The recent me! last week at parkway's toilet. :P

The STS at the lousy service Swensen.

and...

opps! Bear and Ser, are they together? we won't tell anyone alright? just be open! =X

thanks to the paparazzi that day! around of applause to Ms Ng and Ms Tong!!! haha...

*alright.. the above pictures were just the effort of us trying to catch if Ms Soo is with one of them. haha... but we caught nothing that day! so, don't get angry ahhh!

SMILE!

Went shopping with Serene, Jasmine and Ser's friend, Jasmine. lolxz..
The shoe I want was out of stock, meaning, NO MORE!!!
Went to have fish soup and my sesame paste! finally~~
Went Parco to look for dress for lao ba's wedding, and the only conclusion I got is - I'M STILL VERY VERY FAT!

I was happy because I managed to shake 3 kg of fats off for the past one week, and glad to be pulling up the used-to-be tight pants when walking.
But I'm kind of demoralized when I try those sleeveless dress. FATS FATS FATS!!!

haizzzzz... Going to face this again on thursday =(

muahahaxz.. guess where am i now!? lolxz.. i'm at serene's house! yippie!!!

went to bed early yesterday because of the angry thing -_-' and i never have dinner. thus, making me damn hungry in the morning till i keep running to the toilet and come out nothing -_-' went t work with a sick stomach, and got home around 2 hours after that. haha..
rested for an hour, and went to mum's place to look for her and had my first proper meal there.
spent around 80 bucks for swensen after that -_-' lousy service..

went to orchard to look for tim's mafia theme, got something nice back. haha...
had our dinner at cineleisure's foodcourt, and in the end when we were about to go home, bear said that he's meeting shi yi. i was like...

was talking to ah bos about the categories of people i would always do to them.

1. I'll treat them good.

2. I'll scold them whenever i see them

3. I'll curse them.

muahahahaxz..
but sometimes, to those people that I treat them good, they would tend to climb over to my top, and that's the time that I treat them as category 2. If they got worse, it goes on... till I treat them as if they don't exist.

anyway... its how i live my life, if you're not happy with the way i live, hmm.. what can i do? haa...

anyway...
got angry over small small things today again... -_-' temper boiling..

1. ms momo, kind of shouted at me in front of other's SE asking why she can't put her things at the counter. -_-' even though i told her alot of times, only customer's ICs are allowed -_-'

2. a bloody fat pig came and no one attend to him, and he wanted to complain, and gave me that fucking big fat will-die-of-high-cholesterol face -_-'

3. waited for half and hr at the new japanese buffet restaurant, and sis and that bastard reach just before their last order, and we're left with nothing to eat.

4. the fucking attitude that bastard gave me

5. i only had lunch today, no breakfast, no dinner.

whateva~~

what's more worth living than you? FUCK OFF LA! isn't your family more worth than anybody? fuck la.. then you grew up in an egg or some rubbish dump? and tell me you won't regret saying this. I SAY, YOU WILL! and you said u never regret for the past 17 years of ur life. is it really true? you yourself know. I'm certain that you're still childish. CHILDISH!

wtf... just online, and saw something that disgust me. fuck.

was talking to jas just now about my plan. anyway.. no plan. another.. FUCK

1. i'm unable to get into the property line, because i'm below 21.
2. SIM have not send any email or letter of notifications about the school admission
3. i'm going to be transferred to alexandra for the next half year.
4. i can't go for medical checkups
5. i'm going to be confirmed by company, and i need to serve one month notice in able to quit.
6. mum is going to buy the house full cash -_-'

FUCK! EVERYTHING IS OUT OF CONTROL! AND NOT IN MY PLAN!

fuck life...

刚刚看到这一段。。。
为何误会总迟了些了解。。。
为何误会总来不及解决，
分开多少个季节伤害的话还收不回
那落叶是为了迎接冬雪
我憔悴是因为你的永别
要怎么入睡梦才会很完美。。。
希望过去从来一回。。。
那花开是为了迎接蝴蝶
我心碎是因为痛太直接
解释的机会我一直都不给。。。
为何误会总迟了些了解
原来所谓的后悔跟痛苦没有差别
为何误会总来不及解决
我无法预做准备永远失去那种面对

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was thinking of alot of things while travelling, while bathing, while shopping...
i've always misunderstood dad?
i use to think that he always dump mum behind and went to enjoy himself, soaking himself into the pool of alcohol... however...

he's just working so so so hard to support the family... =(

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went to jb just now, had bak kut teh! =S not oily one!!! ha.. healthy bak kut teh? =X no way!
bought a few psp games back, ~,~ it's with wai yee now, going to get the game from her on thursday~

went to ICA just now to collect dad's ammended birth cert. can you imagine that? the person in the mountrary put dad's nationality as sierra lonne? don't know howda spell, but i only know there are alot of blacks there...
after that it kind of rain for a while, and then we get to bugis, walked for awhile, wee got himself a shirt and a pants. so big size @_@
proceed on to china town later on without wee. hee.. he went to work~
mum and 3rd aunt went to sign the lawyer letter things, and we had our dinner there @_@

~ had my first cap of duromine today... it really works! i don't feel so much of wanting to eat!!! and thus, replaced my breakfast + lunch with just milkshake, and dinner with grilled chicken foldover ~,~
because ah bear's side don't have much things to buy except macdonald @_@...

did alot of nothing at work today -_-'' lolxz... stupid uh? staring into blank most of the time, because not much of customer.. was planning and deciding on alot of things...

1. hdb haven't reply us, and we can't get them and ask if the loan have any updates.
~checked out about the HLE, it has expired.
2. planning to open a new account in OCBC bank
3. planning to terminate the subscription / membership at trueyoga. 148 per month can do alot of things.. and i can get cheaper yoga at other place!!!!
4. shall draw out all the money and place them into my uob acct, and direct my pay to uob acct too.. as for ocbc, shall be my study funds~

talked to doreen yesterday, and yolin...
doreen was offering me to join property, asked me to go take property course etc... actually i don't mind taking up courses that will help me know more things.. anyway, the more things i learn the more knowledge and skills i've got!
yolin was offering a job at 1.4k... and i got a few plans, and i need you all to help me choose which one is more suitable for me =(
1. Work at Transworld, 9am - 5.30pm = $1.2k
SIM, Mon, Wed, Fri - 7pm - 10pm = need to pay est $200 / month
Tues, Fri - Property course = course fee around $500 - $1000
*so after i pass the property course, i can go for part time property agent.
Weekends - KM - $10 / hr, can earn extra $100 - $200 a month

2. Study full time, sponsored by Transworld - going back like once or twice in a week = $500 allowance
Property course - at night, after passing
Part time property - at night for viewing etc..
Weekends - KM - $10 / hr, can earn extra $100 - $200 a month

3. Work in the new company that yolin offer = $1.4k + up to $200-$300 OT
SIM, Mon, Wed, Fri - 7pm - 10pm = need to pay est $200 / month
Weekends - KM - $10 / hr, can earn extra $100-$200 a month

4. Work in KM = $1.2 k + up to $600 weekend allowance
Part time at Transworld = $55 / day, able to earn up to $300 per month

ahhh! confused.. comments please!!

hahaha.. i did something boring just now.. :P



shocking... haa..

went to dr tan just now.... cost a big hole in my pocket...
$205 for 2 medication, can you imagine that!? omfg~~
so, i gotta work extra hard, or it will go to the drain. humph...

went to parkway to look for mum, and met something i'm unhappy about...
i bought a casing for me psp, and they recommended another casing with ear piece together for $30. and the casing sucks! the umd part was flipping out, and they claim that they're new -_-' what i want was clipped tight behind, and i told them i'm not getting the ear piece anymore but they kept saying that they already wrote the receipt liao -_-' wtf wtf!!! and i so dulan till i took the cheaper casing and went off... stupid me..
so angry -_-'''
and brought mum there and get another casing, with the earpiece, but got $7 refund -_-' meaning, i spent $10 for that bloody lousy ear piece. I'M STUPID, I NOE..

and got to a beauty salon to trim my eyebrow, thinking that it cost $5, but in the end that bitch told me is $10 -_-''
wateva~
wasted so much money today. omg~~~

went to expo for the foodfair.. haha.. so many things to eat!!! muahahaxz...

anyway... saw the pic tong yi uploaded in facebook, the so called thousand copies of faces in a book... lolxz...

chatted with bui bui just now.. we were spreading each other negative.. haha..

THANK YOU MR TENG YU HUI FOR SENDING ME JOLIN & JAY'S NEW ALBUM SONG!!! *applause!*

this is going to be a short post, because I'm tired!!!!

I'M GOING ON DIET COURSE!

I SWEAR I'M NOT GOING TO EAT WITH SERENE AND JASMINE TOGETHER NEXT TIME! FEEL SO STRESS!!!! THEY EAT SO LITTLE!!! *just kidding.. heee... i love you all.. haa

JIAN FEI!!!!

54kg! here i come!!!

just went to PS with Serene and Jasmine...
and now i'm in low mood again..
saw lin ho online..
his birthday is on the 30th of october..
the day that dad passed away..
kit messaged me and asked me how am i...
i'm not ok..
dad.. i really miss you...
='(
i know you are not going to come back anymore..
please bless us...

ITS ANOTHER DAY!!!
haha... the feeling is great when great things happen after another... (counting my dad's stuffs aside ok?)

was back to those old days when we're in secondary school, now all of us have grown up! but we still meet up for shopping, and movies and dinner and stuffs! omg~~ I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

was saying that Serene and Tongyi sure fight yesterday because
1. Serene wanna watch Triangle, but Tongyi wanna watch Bee Movie
Serene said "i don't wanna watch movie that kids watch!"
Tong Yi said "香港电影拍来拍去都是一样，你是卧底，我也是卧底" ~,~

2. Serene wanna eat grilled fish, Tongyi wanna eat fondue -_-'

took a few pics with her, but she only upload this -_-'''

lolxz.. forgotten the rest.. but anyway... we went to Fish & Co for Serene's Grilled fish, and fish and chips and seafood platter, and to Coffee Club for TongYi's Fondue, and then to Bee Movie~ muahahaxz...
Its a nice nice show!!!

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bzzzzz
haa..
went to work, as usual, today.
no customer, nothing...
got lotsa shuai ge!!!!
1. ah cheng
2. ah cheng
3. ah cheng!!!

its not that i like him or what, but i really like to see pretty things!!!
then saw david aw on tv again. the one who acted chen wei lian in chen wei lian's life story. damn shuai.. and what's next, he is Vienn's cousin -_-' haha.. what a small world!!!

happy people do happy things, and get happy jokes~ haa.. (aren't joke meant to be happy?)
lolxz..
Ken and Roy were saying about playing with 16 years old mei mei in our company, the twins.
Ken : "eh, Roy, later you take one girl, i take one girl."
Roy : "you siao, later you wanna dump also hard to dump, later cut wrist once never die, cut alot of times scare you"
Ken : "aiya! this kind, every month throw $100 to them can le la.. long time send them to school once, let their friend wow at our BMW 5 series, they happy le mahh"

that was really cheebye.. haha... but was meant to be a joke. Both of them are planning to get married with their girls le.. so.. haaa..

was msn-ing with serene, jasmine and tong yi for the whole day just now.. lolxz..
I WANNA EAT THAI EXPRESS TOMORROW! and tong yi don't want, and we concluded that Tongyi is really looking for trouble with us... hahaha.. because she always is the one to find someone to argue whenever it comes to meeting us!
haha...

going to Dr Tan tomorrow, to get prescription!!! dear god.. help me!!!

good day tomorrow pleasE~~

Did this just now...

Name: Ng Wan Sin
Birthday: 11/6/1988
Your Life Path Number is 7
Your Life Path Number represents the path you should take through life and the talents and skills you have to make your journey a rewarding one.
Having a 7 Life Path makes you a seeker of truth and knowledge.
You enjoying exploring the mysteries in life and strive to find answers to the unknown.
You are an analytical thinker and enjoy spending time alone with your thoughts.
Avoid letting the isolation go to extremes.
Positive Traits: Analytical, Mystical, Prepared, Wise
Negative Traits: Aloof, Cynical, Superficial, Fussy
Associations Tarot:
ChariotAstrology: Jupiter, Neptune, Mercury, Libra
Rune: Ehwaz
I Ching: #52 Ken
Tree of Life: Netzach, Victory
Hebrew Letter: Zayin, Ayin
Shamanism: Crab, Horse, Falcon, Tortoise
Element: Water
Alchemy: Bronze, Silver, and Gold
Aura: Red
Color: Purple
Gemstone: Amethyst
Crystals: Violet Rutile
Months: July
Week Day: Saturday
Lucky Numbers: 2, 4, 5, 7, 16, 25, 34, 43, 52, 61, 70, 79, 88, 97, 106
Flora: Crocus, Geranium, Poppy, Fern

*cough *cough..
dying la!!!

mum went to the dua di ah peh there to ask about how is dad living down there... and he gave a few replies...
1. asking my mum not to go flip my dad's things in the middle of night
2. asking my sis to watch what she's eating..
3. regarding my brother...

as for me.. i don't know.. lolxz... maybe ask me to stop smoking? opps... i'm trying to quit!!! hope dad don't tell mum about that.. haa..

say don't miss my dad is fake one la... =( already not that upset, as I know he is still in another world, but its just kinda really 遗憾 when someone related to you, passed away, and he / she is no longer beside you. its like wasted. its like, you use to be talking to each other, laugh together, shouting at each other, jog together... now.. he's no longer able to do that anymore...

they said dad never 托梦 to us is afraid that we get upset, especially mum..

=( kind of hurt...

I simply think, I AM NOT SUITABLE FOR ANYONE! AND I'M NOT A TOY FOR GUYS TO PLAY! fuck off la..

Maybe because I got into the working society earlier, that's why the people I mixed with are much older than me, and the thinking of me tends to get a little more matured compared to people at my age.
That's why, people around my age, I find them not suitable for me, because the topics don't match!
I find people much older than me attractive, maybe I think that they can give me more future I guess... however...
I'M WRONG.

anyway.. don't wanna talk much about it, I just find myself dirty....
Serene said I'll soon find my Mr Prince or Ms Princess or whatever soon la...
Whatever gonna come, will come. We shall see...

Alrite i m going to have the most sua gu's post ever! Haha! I'm using my new PSP Slim to write this blog! Ha! PSP really rawks! Alrite, went to Georges w Mr Shocker just now, its a great place! Seems like I'm having gd mood uh? Wateva!~ Gonna wake up early ltr!
Peace Out!

Quarterback Joe Kingman is known as one of the toughest players to ever take the field. Blessed with amazing strength and agility, he's famed for being able to handle any hit, no matter how ferocious. Kingman's Boston-based pro football team, The Rebels, is chasing their long-awaited championship and Joe has been living the ultimate bachelor fantasy: he's cool, rich, famous and the life of every party--and there are a lot of parties. But his dream is suddenly sacked for a loss when he discovers Peyton, the 8-year-old daughter he never knew existed, on his doorstep. Now, just as his career is soaring, Joe must learn to juggle his old lifestyle of parties, practices and dates with supermodels while tackling the new challenges of ballet, bedtime stories and baby dolls--all without fumbling. Equally perplexed is his hard-edged mega-agent, Stella Peck, herself without a parental bone in her body. But, as the championship grows nearer, Joe is about to realize that the game that truly matters has nothing to do with money, endorsements or even touchdowns--it's all about the really tough stuff: patience, teamwork, selflessness and winning the heart of the one little fan who turns out to count the most.

Never go work today again.. Getting lazier and lazier ~,~

Went to Hdb Hub again, but together with Ah Chor and Li Hong, Mum and Wee. To settle U2's share's money. They said have $8k, but I don't know will they really give it to us after we signed the withdrawal of share. Need a lawyer again...

Just came back from Bedok Inter after meeting the MP for Marine Parade for our HDB things.
Wonder if our loan would be approved. omfg.. so many shit things la..
- HLE was approved for dad's and mum's combined income
- Now left mum's income is not enough
- And we don't know if HDB would allow mum to loan for 4 room *fuck shit. forgot to mention this to the MP just now!
- 2 more weeks to go for the result of HLE transfer of borrower. is it how its supposed to be spelt? wateva~
I DON'T LIKE MYSELF LA!!! how can i forget such an important thing!?

Went to East Coast with Desmond yesterday. Had a Curry Fish Head, Crispy Cereal Prawn, Baby Gailan, One Hoegarden, One Tiger, Total = $108~
OMG~

haha...
Dressed up quite nicely to go out yesterday. haha... I'm happy, although no cake this year. hee..


nice? haha... ~,~ tim said i looked tired. awwww...

I really wish and hope to celebrate my birthday with my father this year. But he left us too early.

Went to Orchard yesterday to meet Serene, Yi, Tim, YuHui, Teck and Ming for dinner at Vila'Ge. Saw Energy there, and find that Kunda got handsomer compared to the previous time I saw him, which was.... 3-4 years ago? hahaa... The new guy, XiaoGang is so cute!!!! haha... shy shy looking. :P

Took alot of picture at Vila'ge yesterday, and went to K-box at Cine too! we went there like 9pm? and ended around 3 plus 4am in the morning.. so tired!!!! and now, i'm voice-less -_-'

Alright, shall show you guys my work. haa...

double click the slide to view it bigger... ^^" blog format too small :P

你相信鬼吗？
。。。
我相信。

那天爸爸失踪一整天的晚上，在报警了之后，我去到了爸妈住的地方。
那晚，楼下的狗一直吠个不停，我问妈妈楼下的狗是否每晚都这样吠个不停。不是。。
那时我已经知道了。。。

隔天早上
警察就打电话来说爸爸过世了。
那晚爸爸又在看我们吧。。。

丧礼第一天
我们哭着接爸爸的棺材进来时，爸爸的照片哭了。。
晚上，在三伯家的冷气机，能用了。
平时怎么开，怎么修都不能启动的冷气机，既然能用了。

而且是连续四天都能用。。

丧礼第二天
爸爸的朋友说在梦里看到爸爸，叫爸爸快点走，可是爸爸说一切都太迟了。。。

丧礼最后一个晚上
三舅来了，他说爸爸在丧礼走来走去，很开心，因为他的朋友都来了。。。

火化的那一天
安了灵位之后，阿伟竟然敲到头，那是妈妈的愿望，希望弟弟能快点开窍。哈哈。。。*敲到头是爸爸敲的是我们自己想得啦！
。。。 to be continue

Qn: 刮台风的时候需要带多少钱出门？
Ans: 四千万
Explanation: 刮台风时， 没（事千万）别出门

Good right?

Anyway, is just to brighten up our mood.

Finally got home.
Went to Bright Hill earlier on, to burn offerings for dad. Going there again on the 7th day.

Then we proceed to Hdb Hub, and the same old reasons and explanation by them again. You have to write a letter, then we can send them up to the department, and you have to wait for a few weeks then we can let you know if you're eligible.
Nowadays I find that my english is getting weaker and weaker, I wonder why those babarians don't understand.
I'M SAYING I WANNA KNOW WHAT SHOULD WE NEED TO HAVE THE HLE APPROVE SO WE CAN GET OUR HOUSE FASTER, and not asking if we're still eligible to get the loan. WTF!
I already know after dad passed away, the HLE we applied is no longer applicable, and those people are like, deaf? blind? or illiterate? omfg...

Tony came to meet us for the AIA insurance dad invested on, everything goes on well, luckily he's not as useless as I've thought of. I mean, he really look a nothing-to-do-everyday person to me.

Went down to Great Eastern and NTUC income there too.
NT*C kind of sucks.. haa... really -_-'

We're back home, wonder how long are we able to call bear's house a home. Hopefully 116 get approved! Dad really put in alot of effort!!!!

Life have been havoc for me for this year.

1. We sold our house
2. Can't find new house
3. Grandma passed away
4. Property agent commit suicide, and we need to find another agent.
5. We planned to get a new house at Tampines Blk 842, but we are unable to get bank loans.
6. End up we got no place to stay.
7. Dad got caught by police for drink driving.
8. His license got dismissed
9. He have to close down his business
10. Got himself drunk everyday, soaking himself in the pool of beers.
11. He got himself heart attack, and he passed away...

...
He left his pub at 1am on 30th Oct, and we can't find him for the whole day after that and made a police report. On the 31st, the police called, and said that he passed away, and asked us to go down SGH to identify the body, without his wallet and handphone with him.
WE ARE UNABLE TO SEE HIS LAST BREATH, WE ARE UNABLE TO KNOW IMMEDIATELY THAT HE PASSED AWAY... =( His body is so lonely... =(

Dad... I miss you...

I'm really angry with you when you're still alive, leaving mum alone at home everytime and not heeding what mum told you, advice you. If you could just leave your friends for mum, you wouldn't land yourself up with high blood pressure and heart disease other than diabetes...

However,
- I blamed myself for not able to talk to you that much when you're alive.
- I blamed myself for not able to ask you not to drink so much when you're alive.
- I blamed myself for not able to look after your health even I learnt nutrition
- I blamed myself for not able to convice you to do more exercise instead of drinking so much...

Whatever things that I've said now, is no longer of use anymore...
What I can do now, is to take over your role, to look after mum, to look after wanyi and ah wee...
I promise.

These few days is really a havoc to me, alot of things changes.
In able to be a support to mum, I can't cry, and the feeling really sucks...
Sigh...
I also get to see what outside's world is like during these few days of funeral.
My dad already passed away, and there are still people talking big words during his funeral, INFRONT OF HIS PICTURE ok? what the fuck..
Sigh.. That's life..
Someone else still asked if I still blame her or anything.. Even if I blame you, I've got no time to do it, because I'm still at my father's wake! Hello?
Esther and Ong Lay See came, they're really freako... Still able to talk about work all these when a person has got totally no mood to do work during a wake. wtf...
They totally got no sense of apology sense of condolences...

Anyway.. Life continue.. I'll work hard, study hard. Jia you jia you!