ha.. had a wonderful saturday last week...
ahbu ahbu came over to make spaghetti and my mum's FRIED DUMPLING..
hohoho..
end up i'm coughing non stop @_@ zzzz...

gonna go sleep soon.. looking forward to shopping with ahbu ahbu this week, shop for new phone!!!
ahh! this saturday gonna go for Carol's hen's night! can't mahjong mahjong! ~,~

Maybe all the problems lie in me.

I'm someone with fucking attitude which nobody can stand it.

Even my family..

Why am i so stupid to have thought that someone would be able to withstand it?? Maybe I'm the one who should change in order to let people accept me.

Who cares...

To me.. I just feel that, that's my fucking attitude, my fucking problem, if you don't like it, just fuck care. I am also referring to few weeks ago, what Yu hui said about me, and what I reply.

Maybe I'm just someone who won't admit my own wrong. Maybe I need to grow up.

My stupid temper is making everyone running away from me (instead of walking, they increase speed).

That is the reason why, I'm afraid that Bee, you'll leave me, because of this. Especially some weeks in the month.

**Why in the fucking world am I repeating myself again and again and some parts of the months about my MOODSWING!?"

I apologise for not letting you know that I've reached home. As along the way back home, the only thing in my mind was.. "What's wrong with me, missing the train station, being bracket as finding excuses?"

got a little bit upset earlier on...

You said you find it as a lame excuse to have missed the train station that I was supposed to get down.
I'm lame.

I was playing psp and was talking to Jennie when the train passed Eunos. and when we realised it, the door already closed at Bedok on its way to Tanah Merah.

What is lame in the above?

I know you've never missed your stops before, BUT I DID! I told you I have no sense of direction and often miss my stops or lost my way. If you can't really take it, then just jollywell dump me one side, let me find my way MY OWN!

I'm upset about this because YOU made me feel I'm stupid, I'm lame, I'm an IDIOT!

You said its a small matter, but that's when, I know, you, treat me as an idiot...

is it supposed to be spelt like that.. H.E.N.S N.I.G.H.T? heh!?

heard of that before la.. lolxz..

We gonna celebrate Carol siew jie's hens night... lolxz... cool right!?
never go out with colleagues to drink or celebrate anything before.. i mean, in a group la..
maybe i did? lolxz..

with ken and groups when he got confirmed..
with wai yee when she's bored?
with ah bec? wahaha!!

very little people la..

30th August 2008!!!

woooo~~hoo!!!~

hiak hiak.. today's title is : i love my boy..

hiak hiak...

so happy.. bee drop by my house just now even though he's tired after yesterday's function and needing to wake up so early in the morning to report back camp -_-''
感动！！！！ 万分！！！

hiak hiak..
i know you dun wan me disappointed again, but i say liao, i understand that you tired lehh!!! anyway, tmr gonna meet o so wat!!!
slap slap..

but thank you big big... hiak hiak.. thank you for your lub lub...

muack! love you bee..

hiak hiak..

been playing mahjong since 3.30!!!! just now went for driving... not bad... engine only died once =X wahaha... but alot of slow MO people ~,~

alright, talking about mahjong.. today is the first time i've won more than $10 for the games! after playing for the whole day.. -_-' zzz..

there are some good tiles like BIG 4 in the first round, and 8 flowers in the first round... but i never manage to HU for that la.. wahaha..

quite lucky??

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talking about ytd... stayed home almost the whole day..
but kind of enjoyed.. cos i cooked spaghetti with ahbudi!

damn nice!

my mum kept saying that the spaghetti is nice.. wahaha..

thanks ahbudi!!!

next week i cook chinese style.. =X MI HUN GUAY... hope u'll like it? ;)

hiak hiak hiak..

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guess u zzz like now.. i guess i gonna go sleep soon!! abit tired liao.. hiak hiak.. GOOD NITE!!!

someone messaged me online just now.. asking me whether still wanna work at my part time there..

one question.. if i don't work, where am i going to grow money? the reason why i'm holding on to this job till now is because i need the flexible timing and the pay there..

and i'm going to be replaced or sacrificied off because her best friend is looking for job.

why am i always the first one to be out of the place?

i'm also human...

I know you're tired.. but i really don't know what you want..

You said you are tired, I asked you to stay home rest, and you are worried about me being upset of you not coming to meet me..

ITS ALRIGHT....

what's a girlfriend for? to understand, to give in..
and you think of me of someone who's not understanding at all..
you know how sad am i to have known that that's what you thought of me?

i mean it when i say "STAY HOME REST!" and you keep saying that i'll be disappointed and don't want me to be disappointed. I know you meant good, but I'm also UNDERSTANDING enough to want you to rest at home and meet at weekends only.

what for stressed yourself up and make your life so hard by keep pleasing me????
we still have a long way to go..

if right now you're feeling tired already, then what about the future years? getting more and more tired??? and always sian half when we go out? I DON'T WANT LOR....

hai.. don't know if you understand what i'm talking about.

i really will feel disappointed, but more upset and guilty if you were to come down and meet me when you're tired..

i hate myself...

after chatting on phone with ahbudi, i need someone to talk to...

scrolling off my msn list, no one on it..

i just come to realise, except for ahbudi, no one else is there for me when i need them...

The movies i've watched for the past 1 month??? lolxz... still have kung fu panda and stuffs la.. @_@ never add.. but i can say i almost finish all the movies in GV! lolxz... except the scary ones.. wahahaha...